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I am sitting here w/ tears running down my face like so many nights over the past 5 mos. I called you to tell you about Aleea appt. to her specialist & you said you have to work. I talked to Aleea for a second. I tried to call at 7:30 to tell her goodnight &�you said you would call when you got in that she was a sleep I asked if she was w/ you &�you said yes. Its 9 & you didn't call. I feel like when you know how strong my love is you take advantage of my feelings. I know you have moved on &�it kills me to know. What do I do from here? I asked god to have you come home or take my feelings for you away! There still here &�you aren't. How is that fair??? I am so sorry I fucked up so much I just need one more chance to show you I can fix this &�make it ok! The sad part is I would even let him keep seeing her just to show him I can do this. I know if you would give me a chance he would want to come home to me &�Aleea. I don’t think I am going to get my chance &�how do I prepare for that?

I� had a good day today, even though I had a bit of a headache.� I am so tired and I�feel like I�haven't sleep for days.� I�had an appointment with my Case Manager and I think that went well, but then I�find out my doctor retired and that bummed me out.� I�didn't sleep well last night at all.� I�am so tired I�could climb into bed and go to sleep right this minute and feel like sleeping for 2 weeks.� I�wish I�had some medicine to help me sleep better.I went to Jewelry club and had fun, even though I�kind of lost interest in making jewelry for a bit.� I�gave a bracelet to my friend because she is going to help me out to pay fior a movie tomorrow when we go with Healthy Living.� I�hope we see a movie that we all like.� It's going to be fun I�think.� I am taking a sack lunch.
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hello beloved

I had a headache pretty much all day. Just haven't felt well at all and so I plan to go to bed between 8 and 9 tonight.

�just got home that was a cool party @ Victoria's house.. it feels soo good to go out! i have not been out in a long time. seen people i use to party with catch up on what's going on w their life.. as I say bye i realized this might be the last time I see them again.. and am a little sad and I will miss my friends.. I am not changing my mind..�

I still 100% would like to move to Ga and be with the only man I love. and hopefully send the rest of my life with him. but cant help the fact that I will be leaving behind all these friends I have and known for years.. the place I called home for a very long time now,�

I�had a very good day today.� I�went out to lunch with my friend and we really enjoyed ourselves.� We had a good long chat.� I�showed her some of my writing and I�think she liked reading them.� I returned some library books at Temple City Library and got dropped off here, so I�can hang out here for an hr and then will take the bus home.� I�am excited because when I�get home, I�can actually watch tv.� Yeah! I�am feeling better today.

I have not been feeling at all today. The Depression group did not go well and I did not make it to my other groups. I had a severe migraine that would not go away and I felt nauseous all day. I also felt as if I was going to have an anxiety attack, but thank God I didn't. I really do not want to end up in the hospital again.On a better note though I�found $3 that someone had lost.� I�am sorry for the person that lost the $3, but it was good for me to find $3 because I�need it on Sunday, so my friend and I�can go out to lunch.� Hopefully, the person who lost it will not miss it.� The person dropped it on the ground.� If it had been in a wallet, I�would have found the owner and not kept the money, but since the bills were lying there open, I�didn't ask anyone if they lost some money because they could have said, "Yes,"even if they didn't and it cheered me up anyway.� I don't feel bad for keeping it because I know if I�lost money, someone would have it.� Once I�found $20 in the gutter and another time I�found $10 at school. �That was really cool because I�treated my friend out when I�found $20 and when �I found $10 I�treated my mom and friend out.�



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